Baby anxiety

Hello old friends. By now I figure everyone has quit reading this blog all together. Recent posts by a certain mother of twins has me figuring it is time for a post of my own.

Only problem is I don't have anything interesting to blog about.

So I guess I will just give quick life update.

It might be a good idea to start a baby count down. Due date is Nov 16, so that is what, 3 and half months away.......... sorry, need a minute........

I get this sudden onset shortness of breath when I think about this little person that will be entering our lives soon. It was like that days you wake up a realize that you have a 10 page paper due that day and you haven't started it yet. Times 7. I feel like we haven't really been preparing for this. I mean, we have bought a couple books, and we have some clothes to put it in when time comes, but it doesn't seem like enough. I mean, I went to school for 4 years to get a business degree that I didn't really even use. And what, I have to keep this kid for something like 18 years. How come there isn't a program to become a parent. Teach me how to do diapers, make a bottle, appropriate discipline if they do something “bad”. Do people do allowances any more? Am I allowed to spank? I am supposedly an Emergency Medical Technician – Advanced, yet I don't know if I should call an ambulance if my kid has a febrile seizure – I only ask because we get those calls all the time, and we usually cancel on scene...Forget that. I will be calling the ambulance.

So many questions.

But I can't wait. I really can't. I am ready to take my kid to the park, to the football games, to friends houses. My platoon is full of young parents with young kids, and they almost all seem absolutely in love with their kids. They have all sorts of horror stories, but they quickly follow that up by saying it is lots of fun.

The fafard clan seems like they got a good thing going...although I am pretty pumped we aren't having twins. Not sure I could handle that. I would likely forget one at the mall or something...mind you I will probably do that anyway.

Well I better get back to my deck. Just about done the railing, and that should be it. I am pretty proud of it. I require all of you to come here and see it and have a drink with me on it.

Take care.