Getting a grip

It wasn’t long after writing my previous blog that I realized how silly I was feeling sorry for myself. Sure this hiring process is getting a little frustrating, but in the grand scheme…no, even in the small scheme, I am living a great fricking life.

That’s name a few. I have, in my opinion, one of the best wives in the history of the world, and certainly the best one I could ever even hope to find. I have friends who I like to be around and make me feel like they enjoy my company from time to time. I have a family that I am proud to be a part of, and an extended family, which is growing, and I am happy to say filled with more people I think of as friends. I have a great house, live in a place, no matter how cold it is, that I feel safe in. I never have to worry about the basic necessities in life, food, water, shelter and such. I don’t even really worry about money, and that is impressive seeing as I haven’t had a job in 11 months (this is mostly because of the previously mentioned wife).

Yep, I have a great frickin life.

Anyway, this is all a little sappy, but it gets me wondering if more people out there realize how good their lives are. There are certainly some people in this world who are not living in as perfect a world as mine. People who, for what ever reason, were dealt a shitty deal even though they were/are good people. But I also think there are people that bad things happen to that as they say “had it coming”

I am a strong believer in Karma, and that if I do good things, then good things will happen to me. I am not a prefect person, that is for damn sure, but I do try and treat others with respect, and hope for respect in return. I try not to cheat, steal, or lie, so that others won’t cheat me, steal from me, or lie to me. I don’t like to be cruel to people, in hopes that other won’t be cruel to me. (The obvious exception to this is my poor brother, who I tortured for years…although we had lots of good times as well.) In short, I find it simple to let one general rule govern the way I act, and it’s one that we have all heard since we were young… Treat others like you want to be treated

Here are a few things that I like to do to tip the scale of Karma to my side:
- Be friendly to cashiers and servers
- Call seniors “Sir”, or “Ma’am”
- Leave my loonie in the carts at Super Store so that the next person to use it gets a nice surprise (admittedly not every time)
- Always stop to push someone out if they are stuck
- Hold open doors.
- Stop to help little old ladies get in or out of their car.
- Signaling/not driving in the left lane.

The waiting game

Holy Crap, I am starting to go crazy. I got a call from my friend Eric who is also going through the hiring process, and he is also starting to go crazy, so he called the dept. today to see what was up. Turns out that there STILL hasn't been any decision made on how many recruits will be hired. Apparently negotiations are still underway between the province and the county to over the ambulance contract. Of course, anything involving the government in turning out to be long and drawn out. Apparently the Deputy Chief is now on holidays until the 21st. I also hear that the start date has been pushed back from early Feb to mid Feb.

So in summary it is getting ridiculous. I have pretty much put my life on hold waiting to hear about this job. I know that is my choice, and probably a stupid one, but in my defense they have pretty much been string me along, week to week, for almost exactly a month. I am still fairly confident I will have a job, but with each day that goes by more and more doubt creeps into my mind.

I need to get a job. I want it to be in the EMS field, but I don't know how to do that when I have no idea if I will be around Regina for 1 month, or 6 months...or longer.

I feel so useless. I need some structure in my life. I need a reason to get up in the morning...and once up, stay the hell off the couch.

Anyway, enough feeling sorry for myself. Time to get up and frickin do something.

Have fun working.